I hate that I haven't written on my blog in awhile. It just seems like I am always too busy to think about it and then I don't really have anything that I want to say...hopefully I can get better at writing on here! We are really liking Nashville..I am loving my job! It can be exhausting, but it is rewarding. We love the branch that we are in and the people there. I got a calling to be a relief society instructor and I taught for the first time a couple weeks ago and it went really well. Spe got his calling to be the Branch Mission Leader! He's glad that he got that and he's enjoying it...I am glad that we moved out here and we have this chance to grow closer together being away from the town we both grew up in. I LOVE being married..it is everything I could ever want and more. It is amazing! Spencer is the perfect husband and I know that we were put on this earth to be sealed together and have an eternal family. I feel his love everyday and I feel my Heavenly Father's love for me everyday..even days that are hard. The days that are "hard" that i'm talking about are days like today and last week when Spe left to go out of town and I am here in this little apartment alone...I am glad that Christina is close so i have some family here, but i'm used to having all of these people around where there is always something going on. The worst part about being alone is at night when I have to turn off the lights and go to sleep with no one next to me to kiss me goodnight. It also doesn't help that i worry constantly about ANYTHING...haha. Anyways..I had a friend just say to me that when it is easier for him to be gone and for me to be alone then that means that the part of me that he fills isn't there anymore and I never want that to happen. So, I can deal with the sadness for a short period of time because I would rather be sad about missing him because I love him so much than being sad because our love has died. I hate when people say "...when you have been married for (however many) years then you will be so glad to be alone when your husband is away...." I hope I never feel "glad" ...it is nice to have time to yourself, i agree, but I want to always miss him. Another thing that I was thinking of was how incredible the women are whose husbands are in the military. The friend that gave that advice is one of those women. I just can't even imagine the pain that they feel when their husbands go off to war. When I feel the way that I do when he leaves (for a week) I think of those that have to say "goodbye" or "cya later" for years at a time, some with children and some without. And the fear and hope that they will even come home when it is that time is something I just could not handle. I am so amazed by the families that do go through that and are so strong. This and the reason Spe is not here is because he is working and providing the necessities of life..this just shows the love that he has for me and shows the love that the soldiers have for their family and their country. Sometimes we have to sacrifice, but sacrifice brings blessings and I believe one of those blessings is a stronger love for one another. When I think about the Savior's Atonement I don't feel so lonely anymore. I know that in whatever circumstance I am in (big or small) he has felt the same as I am feeling along with EVERYONE else's afflictions. I imagine Him on the cross and when he felt alone when he said these words...   

"And at the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying,^aEloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani? which is, being interpreted, My God, my God, why hast thou ^bforsaken me?"

I am so grateful for the Savior's Atonement and the peace it gives me and the peace and comfort The Restored Gospel of Jesus Christ gives me in my afflictions whether they be big or small...I know the Lord has a plan for me and He knows it way better than I could even imagine..He knows what I need and I know he always listens to my prayers and that he answers them. I can't wait for my hubby to be home at the end of the week, but until then I will try to keep myself busy and maybe it will go by quickly....I hope!! =]

*Court*